I think my boyfriend may be onto me. He’s gone from acting sad and upset about a week ago to suspicious and on edge now. I thought my change in attitude would reassure him, but maybe I’ve let on too soon that I think our relationship is going to be fine. I never would have thought that would be a problem, if I’m being completely honest.
I think maybe if I hadn’t read his blog without his permission then I wouldn’t be feeling so guilty. If I hadn’t read his blog then I would have just asked him honestly what is wrong and asked what I could do to help. But I can’t ask him because I’m scared of what he’ll say. What if he asks me point-blank whether or not I looked at his blog? I don’t know if I’d be able to lie straight to his face, but maybe his reaction wouldn’t be that bad because the blog post was really positive and saved our relationship.
God, I hope the flowers I ordered for him arrive soon. I got him the best ground cover roses in Australia. Surely that’s enough for him to forget his suspicions and just be happy that our relationship isn’t on the rocks anymore. When I told him about how I was feeling, I told him because I wanted us to work on it, not just break up. So I hope that he doesn’t want to break up with me now, even though he has no proof of my indiscretions. I love him. I actually am worried about our relationship now.
Oh, wow! I just got a knock on the door. I was filled with dread momentarily when I thought it was my boyfriend potentially coming over to break up with me. But it was actually the mailman. Apparently, my boyfriend bought me some salad vegetable seeds online as soon as we had our initial conversation.
I’m going to call him and thank him profusely for the gift. Hopefully, that’s all I need to do to get myself back in the good books.