Something really embarrassing has sprung up and I know I have to do something about it but I just can’t. And what’s worse, I don’t really have a good reason. I know that. But still. Just because it isn’t a good reason doesn’t mean it isn’t a reason. After all, it is the reason I haven’t gone to the doctor’s in eight years now. It’s just so hard to live with this level of social anxiety. I mean, I guess my inability (or more accurately, my unwillingness) to go outside has only made it worse over the years. I mean, I managed to study from home and then find work from home – with the development of grocery-delivering, I really don’t need to get any fresh air at all.
But this … I can’t deal with this from the safety of my bedroom. I know I need to just suck it up and head out. I’ve been looking at it all online, and I’m confident I need a specialist to prescribe me special foot care products. Cheltenham has a couple of different clinics I can go to, one of them is only a five minute drive for my house.
It’s just one of those things where I don’t think is going to get any better if it’s just left on its own. My foot just keeps getting worse and worse, soon I won’t be able to walk on it at all. Really, it needs medical attention, and I know that. I tried doing a kind of DIY compression therapy but it backfired badly and made the whole situation even worse. It’s not only that I’m starting to get really sick of how sore it is, I’m starting to get kind of worried as well. What will I do if they have to amputate? I’m don’t want to be one-legged!